Gah! Ok.. I have to admit it..
My melting moment for today was when I was looking at my comments and The thing popped up informing me I had 500 followers!!
I feel embarrassed about sharing that because honestly when I started out I didn’t think anyone would read my blog. The reason I started a blog charting my daily efforts to making myself a happier and less anxious person was because if I wrote a diary I KNOW I would have went “Ach.. I will just miss today”.. that day would have probably turned into a week and the whole process would have ended up scrapped. I thought at least if a few people are following I will feel like I should push myself to do something every day.
I never expected 500 people following! I know that not all of those will read my blog but I can see from my wee chart thing that quite a few do.
It’s not only that. When I saw that 500 people following milestone it made me think about how far I had come in such a short time. I have tried a lot of things to make my life better including everything from the mental ‘Baying at the moon and wearing a fake moustache all day might come under those categories’ to trying out new things that I need to try to keep up and learn more about such as meditation and exercising.
I have also bared my soul, which is something I never thought I would do.
I feel like I have made new friends and when I see they have commented on a post I actually feel happy.. which improves my mood at the start of the day for a start!! I do honestly feel so much support and kindness, like I feel a big blast of positive energy coming my way willing me to succeed. I really needed this. It’s strange, there will be days when I feel down and I will get a post that puts things into perspective for me or offers some kind advice.
I don’t think the 500 thing matters but it allowed me to sit ON the milestone and contemplate all the new people who have entered my life in the past month and a half and how much I appreciate you all. It feels like I am on this journey with a bunch of friends and wise people who offer great advice and share their own stories (which is so helpful). It also feel like there are people listening to my story and following me on my journey which means the world to me and feels somehow like I have an army behind me.
Always grateful xxLisa