I am. At this very moment. Melting. flop!
I had a really busy day which with my agoraphobia/anxiety was stressful.
Also last night there was a weird noise coming from the bedroom of mould that is being fixed up atm. At first I thought it was the wind so closed the window…got back into bed and there was still this weird clanging and banging. I thought maybe my cat was in the fitted wardrobe thing so I checked and nope..
Anyway I took me ages to go to sleep and I was woken in the night! I talk in my sleep and apparently I got up in the night shook my fist at the room and said ‘Fuck off Ghosts!!’ hahaha..
I had a little sleep anyway.. but today..
I went to the dentists, had to go to my docs which is about 30 miles away and I was anxious as I was still numb (I had a filling and an extraction..The extraction was more or less just a root though..trauma inducing all the same!) :/ I’m really not good at travelling at the best of times. After I went to my doctors I had a few other errands to do including getting my stamp to say I can do My University course next year…then straight back on the motorway while still feeling stressed.
Now though..My mouth has finally de-numbed, I had a nice sandwich and am on the couch with my cat lying on me and we are all cosy listening to the rain lashing off the windows. It’s been such a tiring day that just to stop and be relaxed and calm (after about 4/5 hours of anxious stuff happening) was totally meltsome!
I already feel better already. I think sometimes happiness or contentment is the feeling you get after you have been through a period of stress or work or just being busy and out of your comfort zone. I don’t think you appreciate home and rest until you have been away and stressed.
I think maybe another part of happiness is doing the things you need to do but being able to unwind after. I know a lot of people find that difficult. Today for me not so much as I am tired from the meds I had to take to go to the dentist and because of those bloomin Ghosts!!!!!
Hope you all get to have some melty rest today!! xxLisa