Helleeeeeee Atchoo!
I tentatively poked my heads out the covers slunk downstairs in my PJs and made myself something to eat. I am starting to feel a little better.. (Hopefully whatever I had was just a 24 hour thing and I will feel tip top again soon)
Anyway..stick wee bit ill but …here from my death bed..struggling to hold the camera thing (actually not even looked at the vid yet)… I managed to bring you Some positive affirmations about my personality. 
No, honest I did feel a bit better or it would have been another ‘Happiness is being in bed watching documentaries!!) …hehe
I found this one really difficult.. I don’t think I have ever had good self esteem regarding my insides. (personality not spleen and intestines..they are ok!) I think the more people tell me what they feel about me the better. I have noticed that hanging out with more positive people who love me and are good at expressing it has helped.
Honestly doing this blog has helped so much.. I have had so many nice comments ..I don’t know how to thank you all. I’m going to do a wee video of some of the things that were said.. which I think will make me go bright red but ..you know I really need to hear positive things about myself. It’s not just an ego boost for me it’s actually making me feel like I am a worthwhile person that deserves to exist on this planet. I know that sounds extreme.. but my internal sense of self has been very messed up for a long time!
I have met many people who over compensated for their lack of self love by sleeping around when they were younger (or still do) I’m and afraid to say I was one of those people. I don’t/can’t regret anything I have done in the past as I can’t take it back. I’m just sad for teenage/early 20′s me who put herself into stupid situations many of which I really wasn’t comfortable with just to try in any way I could to receive a sign that I was loveable.
Of course you never really do. Also you push away the people who do love you because you just can’t believe it.
I still feel in many ways unlovable but I am getting through that with the help of my partner and some amazing people I know irl and online. Again doing this blog is helping so much. (I had no idea it would as I had no idea what to expect when I started doing my daily happiness erm things and writing about them that this would happen!)
I honestly don’t think you know quite how much your positivity and kindness means to me.
Anyway back to my bed of doom.. or to go watch some cosy crap TV under a blanket!
**ETA-haha Just watched the Vid and there is a wee bit of a accidental cleavage shot at the end there.. No nipples.. so I will just leave it in.. (Please excuse me!!) -If you have just eaten your breakfast.. turn the vid off when I say Bye!! ..Also I’m going to put it in tags because I have been amusing myself and my FB friends by the google to here links.. weirdly many including various animals and even a man sniffing a bum!!! … They are just getting weirder too which makes me happy!! **
Thank you for sharing your journey; you are so brave, and you are helping others. The world needs more people like you!
Oooft! I feel like thank and you aren’t big enough words for how I feel when people like you say such kind generous things.
..but thank you..and know those words are huge in my heart!!! *Cheesy..totally but also so true!!**
Love and light xxLisa <3
Hmm, it sounds to me like your heart and root chakras are very well-developed, but your sacral chakra is not (it’s the one that’s responsible for self-esteem and assertiveness). You also feel like quite a spiritual person to me, whether you’re aware of it or not.
I find that when a woman has an underdeveloped sacral chakra, or low self-esteem, it’s often a very misguided “gift” from her parents (most frequently her father), and she naturally tries to replace that source of love and guidance with other men, which rarely works out. Perhaps this has been the case for you.
But you can make the choice to think better about yourself, as your thoughts are completely under your own control. It sounds to me like you’re trying to do this, so bravo to you! Even just a few minutes of that sort of thing a day can really be a big help.
Try surrounding yourself with some bright bits of orange (clothing, blankets, carnelian stones) to boost your sacral chakra and to remind yourself how bright, energetic, and beautiful you are.
Because you definitely are! We can see it, even if you can’t. Hang in there!
Thank you so much for your wisdom and advice. You know It’s funny because for the past two days I have been talking to my partner about spirituality.
I’m not sure my father helped with my self esteem that’s for sure so you are right there.
You know I always felt that my roots were slightly shaky because I never feel at home or safe anywhere but that could also be because I am half Roma..
I am going to look into Sacral Chakras more and I’m going to buy some orange things.
Once I painted a room orange.. perhaps I was unconsciously trying to help myself there.
Thanks again Jennifer.
Love and light to you. xx Lisa
Happy to help! You may not feel grounded in terms of your location, but a strong base chakra connects you to nature, animals, and your body, although it can also lead you to struggle against your body if you tend to comfort yourself in more physical ways than spiritual. This is quite common with people who have strong root chakras, but who may be unbalanced in other areas.
I’m quite the opposite myself – I’m all up in the clouds with no base chakra to speak of, so I tend to do things like forget to eat, etc. It’s all a matter of balance, and it’s easy to go too far in one direction or another. But you feel very warm and red to me, which is a lovely thing in general, if you learn to offset it with your spirituality.
Do you meditate? I highly, highly recommend it. I couldn’t make it if I didn’t. Seriously.
Feel free to email me if you ever want to chat about these things.
Wow..The more you look into things the more you realise you have so much to learn!!
I have been doing my daily happiness blog for nearly 2 months and one of the things I decided I wanted to do was to meditate. I read a book called ‘In stillness conquer fear’ which is specifically for agoraphobic people and those with anxiety. I quite like that it’s very simple to start me off. Someone on here also recommended a book called ‘walking meditations’ which I still need to read. It’s something I know will help me but I had always been reluctant to try. I used to find it very difficult to sit still. Actually it could trigger anxiety. I don’t feel so much like that now though and I feel it’s time I really get into meditation and try to do it every day.
Thank you again for your kindness and generosity.
xx
Yes, I think it would help you immensely, as would the exercise, which increases serotonin. Walking meditation sounds great for someone with a strong base chakra. Do it somewhere safe and private, and you might really enjoy it. I’ll be awaiting a report!
xxxx
Jen
Where I used to live had an amazing forest right next to it and I used to walk for miles with my dog. I rarely freak out in nature. Here is a bit open right next to the sea ..I’m certainly going to try my best though.
ATM the winds are so bad the sea is hitting off the window .,.so will see what tomorrow’s weather brings. Might order a really good coat!
xx
I was TOTALLY thinking forest for you, actually. Try some natural aromatherapy oils, maybe, like cedar or orange oil. I find them really soothing myself.
ahh! Psychic connections. At the moment its strange but these seem to keep happening.
That you are right.. I used to be a lot more spiritual and believe in a lot of spiritual things. I read Tarot since I was about 14 and I still love them, I believed in the universe and so many things and when I started studying psychology a bit of my spiritual side subsided.
I was just thinking there.. as I was changing the bed spread!
When I decided to try to do my happiness journey I wanted to try to get in touch with my spiritual side again, so thank you for inspiring me.
I think I can make it work so that The psychological, philosophical and spiritual bolster each other instead of snuffing each other out.. it’s just trying to find that balance that you were talking about.. which is something I need to think about because it’s something I really need.
Thank you so much. xx
You go, girl! I know you can do it!
its so nice to see you use the blogging world in such a constructive manner. Thanks for adding so much positive energy to the world through your posts.
I hope I am! ..Maybe a little negative with some reflective stuff but it will end up positive I’m sure.
xx
Glad you are feeling somewhat better. I hope you are fully recovered soon.
I completely understand the lack of self love. I have seen it in others, I have seen it in me. You are so right that surrounding yourself with positive people, who adore you for who you are is of supreme import. (wanted to sound smart there)
Have a very good day. Many of us out here in internet land want only the best for you. I know many people in your life do to.
And thanks for the blog. It has become a part of my reading routine and helps to give me a smile, (when I am not stalking you on Faceboook, sorry about that).
Lol. It’s ok..I’m starting to get confused as to who is who in FB so if anyone want’s to friend me shoot me a PM and say who you are on here!
I don’t chat with people unless I know who they are.. vaguely is ok too!
As for the blog ..It is my pleasure..I wouldn’t have lasted a week if it wasn’t for the awesome support so thank you too.
xxLisa
You’ve no idea how much I admire your courage. You got some good advice here so I’ll just shut up and go to bed myself and I may even have a dream for once. Or remember it. Keep going. Your’re writing yourself (and others) into a sane space.
You have no idea what that means to me. I know I keep saying that but really.. It feels a bit like you must be talking about someone else..but I’ll work on that!
Love and light and dreams. xx
I know the feeling. That it is someone else doing the good things. Dealing with that myself right now. It’s good work to do, believing in one’s own strengths. Love and Light.
<3
Way to go! I am often sarcastic, but (almost) never with compliments and wishes, but I guess you figured that out by now
anyway good to see you back on your feet!
On personality self-assertions, I also find it hard to talk to myself (or others) about that; People who say the truth about what they think without pretense are a rare gift, , and as much as I would like to say that my strength comes from within, it would mean nothing if I didn’t have a best friend who is exactly what I just described, because I wouldn’t know that I had that strength. What do I want to say with that? I think, no matter how much this is oozing with cheeze, everyone has the strength, people just have to realize it
I think so too. I don’t think it;s cheesy either. All the existentialists said that we only know ourselves through others and I think they are right. I don’t think I have come to those conclusions about my personality myself but I have been told them.. and they are the ones I believe. Over the years I will have heard some shitty things too which I have been trying to let go of.
Recently when I have been more open about my story there have been people who have said I have an inner strength. I always thought I was really weak and anxious and couldn’t face anything..I am beginning to believe I might be stronger than I though.
Always a pleasure. xx
Oh, now you are making me blush… which doesn’t happen often, mark me
The pleasure is mine, as well
Glad to hear your feeling better!….okay..you have great boobs so dont apologise!
You have big brown eyes and beautiful lips…and yes…you have a great sense of humour!
.As for sleeping around when you were younger…I also had that issue!…No ones perfect!
Have a good day. x
ach.. maybe our mistakes and imperfections are what makes us ‘perfect’ (or as good as we can be)
xxx
Everyone’s different and I think you have a great personality, from little I know you seem like a pretty awesome person. I kinda have low self-esteem myself and I wonder if I could even get that back. I’m happy you found happiness.
I’m not even sure exactly what happiness is.. but I have an idea of what would make me happy.
I know you could get your self esteem back! I know that if you had something about you in the first place you can always get it back!
Love and light to you and best wishes!
xxxLisa
HI LIsa! I am in awe of your bravery. Sorry to hear you are still under the weather tho
The fact that you are getting such profound messages of thanks tells me that you are most definitely helping others in your own journey. Kudos!! Continue to get well and just look at how far you have come! One thing I picked up on which I was so glad to hear (because I too feel the same) Is that regret is futile. What is the point in dwelling on things you cannot change? So right!! 
Aye!!!!
xx
No time to dwell!! Dwelling is a waste of time.. forgiving yourself or others and moving on.. well it;s the future.. like ‘garlic bread’!
Just got to watch this one all the way through, and I have to say you do have a great sense of humor. That is one of the things I love. I love that no matter what, through everything, you can always laugh. That is a good trait. I hope you keep that one forever. Don’t ever let anyone say you are not funny, or that your humor isn’t appropriate. I think that if you can laugh, you will live a longer happier life than those who can’t! Good job on your first daily affirmation (personality) run. I think I would find this hard as well. I would even find talking about me on the outside hard too. (Notice my picture is of me as a baby.)
Love ya girl!
Rebecca
I did notice that! About your picture being you as a baby.. Well I assumed it was you.
You never know…
I have always been a giggler.. I used to get into trouble for it at school but if something made me laugh I couldn’t help myself. :/
About finding it hard to talk about the outside of you too, maybe you could do some positive affirmations.. They are scientifically proven!!!
Love Lisa xx
Being around others can help to improve our own self-esteem but, I still believe that we have a lot of work to do on our own. We can’t always rely on other people to feel better within ourselves; we have to learn to accept and to love who we are.
That’s not meant to sound negative though, as you’ve clearly made a great step forward towards accepting yourself here, with this video. We can all see how great you are and I hope that you can see and accept it within yourself soon as well.
I hope so. Thank you!
Thank you for your thoughts..I think you are right!
xxLisa