The Cosmic Mother has stricken me with my monthly *Insert euphemism for period here! * and I feel like crap today. If you want to hear more moaning.. I also have a sore tum from eating something dodgy yesterday! (Totally my fault..Kebab!? What was I thinking!?) *How do you do cry face?* Normally I try to get on with things but today I just felt too crappy.
Now.. This is SO not a cop out .. erm twas in my happiness plan all along hehe.. Today I decided I was going to look after myself and be kind to me. I think all to often we feel forced to carry on even when we are really not feeling good. (I guess sometimes we have no choice). If we get the chance we should stop and be kind to ourselves. We don’t even have to be sick to do this.. any time is the right time to be kind to yourself.
I was feeling very emotional (shakes fist at hormones) so decided to watch a sad film because after I have have a good cry I usually feel a bit better. It was a straight to tv movie (True story! So angry!!) about a lesbian couple who have a child together and the actual blood mother of the child dies and her other mum loses custody of her child. I realised after about 5 mins I had seen the film before and in my emotional state started sobbing uncontrollably right away.
Generally the best films for me to get all my raging sadness out are ones about infringements on civil rights and basically people being treated badly because they belong to a minority group. So anything about black/gay/trans people being treated badly sets me off. I can’t understand why one human would treat another any differently because of colour,sexuality or because they were born in the wrong body. Stupid humans!!
Hmm I know this doesn’t seem too cheery now but after I watched the film I had cried away all my hormonal sadness and felt a bit better. Plus the film has a happy ending! (well unless your a homophobe!!)
The Happy thing about today is that I allowed myself to feel unwell and just relaxed. I think if we do that we recover a lot faster too. I have decided to stay on the couch… (When not running to the toilet..TMI?) Drink lots of water and force my partner to make dinner for me tonight!
Perhaps I can watch a comedy next.. that film friggin slayed me!
How do you look after yourselves when you feel crappy? Do you have any film recommendations for future feeling crap days.. I think I have now seen all the true life straight to TV sad movies!
Ok, not such a happy day because I don’t feel well on one hand. On the other I am happy that I am learning to accept that sometimes I just have to be kind to myself. I deserve it! (It feels weird for me to write that actually because I am still having trouble knowing for sure I do..I’m going to keep saying it till I believe it!)
Be kind to yourselves because you are the only self you’ve got!
Going back to the couch via the loo.. Cheerio!!